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Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Because my love for you will never die just like your love for Allah swt.

It always get stronger.

Assalamualaikum.

At this moment, I couldn't spell myself, why I'm even updating my blog.

Only Allah knows what's in my mind right now.

All the laziness to do my work.

But Alhamdulillah, I have completed one of it.

Ya Allah, I just want to share what have happened to my life for the past 6 months.

I could never stop thanking Allah for all the blissful moments, in fact everything.

Alhamdulillah, syukur ya Allah.

It made me come to realisation that if once I'm weak, I will fall to a trap.

A trap that is far from Allah.

I have always love Allah and willl always do.

But humans, we are just too weak, too weak that we often do mistakes and sins.

For the past 6 months, I was offered working as a multimedia educator.

How much I love working here was because of my students and some of the people here.

There are times that I suddenly feel that I do not wish to continue because I cant stand the workload, the demands.

I almost give up hope, faith.

I didnt know what to do.

It was between what I love to do, what I dream to do and family.

But Astaghfirullahal'adzim, I could have been patient, more patient and be more thankful for the rezeki that He has given.

In fact, I have to admit, I still do feel that way till now.

That sense of happiness for work is not there.

Is it because of the people here or is it because it wasnt what i love to do.

Ya Allah, may you give me strength and guidance to pull through all this.

When I read all of my previous posts, I actually admire myself so much.

All those beautiful, motivational words that came from the heart.

It was so heart-warming, strong.

I was that woman, that strong woman with so much patience and hope.

That woman who actually made alot of other women jealous of her character, her charisma, her heart-felt faith and love for everyone else even though not everyone could see that and obviously Allah.

Subhanallah, I missed her.

Her laughters, her smiles, her strength, her faith, her hope.

And that was her, she was Mastura.

InsyaAllah, who knows I will be different at the nearing moment. (:

Got to go, knocking off.

I shall update tomorrow.

Wasalam.

1:00 PM

Thursday, May 05, 2011

Assalamualaikum (:

Life has been great just nice with ups and downs.

It never occurred to me that I would be strong as I am right now.

I let loose of myself and redha.

There are times I asked myself how much or how far I would go for the ones I love.

Only Allah knows, its unconditional.

There are times I felt jealousy.

They said jealousy means love.

I guess abit of it that gives the spark in everything.

But I'm starting to think that if one day, Allah take away some things from me.

InsyaAllah, I will redha (':

Everything has already been written.

I believe Allah know whats best.

Thank you, Allah because you've always been listening and understanding.

I could never imagine how my life would be like without Him.

Without Him, I wont be blessed with all these magic.

I always try to be thankful of the little things that He has given.

Because you may never know, this little things are the ones that do magic in our lives.

Everything so perfect, really.

Allah is so kind that I felt that I can never thank Him enough.

For the things He has done, and the sins that I've done be it seen and unseen, its incomparable.

Let's just say, I'm not that her anymore.

I'm Mastura (:

Wasalam.

9:41 PM

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Assalamualaikum (:

Just imagine how much Allah did wonders in our lives.

Because He just did in my life.

That wonder was so much wonderful.

Alhamdulillah.

I feel blessed.

Allah just opened his eyes.

Everything seems perfect now even though theres too much unseen things happening.

But I'm still thanking Him for the strength He gave.

He just never fail giving me that.

I love you Allah.

And yes.

I love you, Putra NurShafiq (:

3:20 PM

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Kerana tanpa Mu, diriku tak sempurna dari akal fikiran dan hati.

Allah (':

Assalamualaikum (:

Its been awhile I blogged.

I was too busy but thats life.

Each entry before, I always felt that I have to let my emotions out here.

I let it conquered myself.

I never understood why.

I told myself to redha, but I've yet to understand what that means.

I believe that I have to leave everything to Allah SWT but I wasnt strong enough.

But Alhamdulillah, now I'm just different.

Most of time now I teared not because I'm sad, but because I felt blessed.

Even though I have to let him go and see him with someone else.

I know only Allah will not leave me.

(':

Wasalam.

1:11 AM

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

When it comes to love, theres only one thing in mind, selfish.

Its almost two months now, since I've stopped updating.

It was a drastic one, which I could never explain why.

Somehow or another, I just wanted to keep everything to myself for the time being.

I'm not breaking down, or depressed.

I just wanted to keep my personal matters to myself.

Too many things have happened, most were just too heart-breaking to even being said, whats more being felt.

But its like everything falling into place now.

I've stopped crying

I've stopped telling myself, "Mastura, please dont weak."

Maybe I'm a different person now.

A stronger person.

I dont regret, I'm just proud of how much I went through.

All this have to end here, not because I'm angry.

I'm just making things right.

Letting you go, and not accepting in future unless you have to do something to prove to me that your love is bigger than mine.

For now, my heart has this no entry admission.

I know you're doing well in your life now and you dont need me anymore.

Its okay. (: If its meant to be, it will.

InsyaAllah.

Okay I have alot of things to do:

car license

korea trip

photography course

counselling

I'm aiming to finish it fast, BTT done by beginning Jan then FTT by Feb, etc and etc.

I still aim to take TP by next yr's April, insyaAllah I aim to pass.

Bismillah.

Hope everything goes well.

8:05 PM

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Maybe I'm just too naive.

Whatever it is, I will just keep quiet and smile.

No one will know I lied.

Now everything are better kept within myself.

Maybe I'm being secretive.

But its better off that way.

Thats Mastura now.

12:49 AM

Thursday, September 16, 2010

"Keluarga 69"

Have you ever felt that something is missing from your life?

Because I always do, and it almost got me falling.

Falling like someone so weak.

And it really did.

The feeling is not exactly empty, is not exactly alone.

Its just that theres this one big hole.

Even though I can differentiate well between care and love.

It comes through together.

I just dont want to be alone.

I want to be with you.

I lost elder sis/bro, I dont want to lose anymore.

12:05 PM