Thursday, September 02, 2010

For the first time, my eyes damn small.
Muke "steam">.<
Its only 4.26pm.
"Banyak sungguh buah kedandak, saya sungguh mendak."
And I'm not fasting because of normal woman issues, so why the hell, I'm counting down for break fast. :D
Sesungguhnya saya menghormati org2 yg berpuasa di bulan yang mulia ini.
Everything will change again now(:
I guess everything are just meant to make me stronger and more matured.
Being an adult isn't easy.
Even though I like the fact, I'm ageing. :O
Haha, but being an adult isn't just about ageing.
Its about learning to make choices, take risks and make mistakes even when we're afraid of failure.
We never failed, because we only failed when we're afraid to decide.
And no one in the world could influence you or force you to decide.
Only you know whats there in your heart.
Yes, everything its a matter of time.
And yes, sometimes we do have to let nature take its course.
But everything must have its beginning so that there will be an ending too be it perfect or not.
And that should start with a decision.
But I believe everything will have a perfect ending.
Because life will always be filled with so many obstacles, but there are always reason behind it.
We need to believe that Allah will surely give us a rainbow after that heavy rain.
Its never easy, and its never going to be smooth.
It might even look ugly.
But what matters is the end isnt it?
If people ask me, how come I can be so patient throughout.
Simple, because I know Allah knows that I'm able to pull through, and for all I know he promised a perfect ending at the end.
Because when you decided to just focus on the ending, trust me, something so painful or hurtful, you can easily just put aside and get over it.
And continue what you think and feel is right.
One thing for sure, I dont regret.
Because actually humans all "baik hati".
Just that, sometimes they make mistakes.
And its normal isn't it? So we should learn to forgive and not just focus on their mistakes.
Theres no such thing as rights of giving chances.
It takes courage to open our heart to give as many chances.
Thats the reason why I like ageing.
Haha! I like it when I learn something valueable in life.
But for now, I "pasrah" everything especially...
InsyaAllah, Allah has the best way.
Amin.
I'm just too different; I miss you still.

4:18 PM