Wednesday, November 10, 2010
When it comes to love, theres only one thing in mind, selfish.
Its almost two months now, since I've stopped updating.
It was a drastic one, which I could never explain why.
Somehow or another, I just wanted to keep everything to myself for the time being.
I'm not breaking down, or depressed.
I just wanted to keep my personal matters to myself.
Too many things have happened, most were just too heart-breaking to even being said, whats more being felt.
But its like everything falling into place now.
I've stopped crying
I've stopped telling myself, "Mastura, please dont weak."
Maybe I'm a different person now.
A stronger person.
I dont regret, I'm just proud of how much I went through.
All this have to end here, not because I'm angry.
I'm just making things right.
Letting you go, and not accepting in future unless you have to do something to prove to me that your love is bigger than mine.
For now, my heart has this no entry admission.
I know you're doing well in your life now and you dont need me anymore.
Its okay. (: If its meant to be, it will.
InsyaAllah.
Okay I have alot of things to do:
car license
korea trip
photography course
counselling
I'm aiming to finish it fast, BTT done by beginning Jan then FTT by Feb, etc and etc.
I still aim to take TP by next yr's April, insyaAllah I aim to pass.
Bismillah.
Hope everything goes well.

8:05 PM